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Originally posted by dr_is_in at Copied via quite a few other places.....not sure of the original source...
*I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

*I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

*I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

*I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

*We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

*I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

*I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

*I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

*I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

*We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

*I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

*I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

*I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

*I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

*I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

*I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

*I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

*I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

*I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

*I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia/transphobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.


Adam in Japan

Tommy's Birthday/Video

Originally posted by dr_is_in at Copied via quite a few other places.....not sure of the original source...
*I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

*I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

*I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

*I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

*We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

*I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

*I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

*I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

*I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

*We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

*I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

*I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

*I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

*I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

*I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

*I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

*I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

*I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

*I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

*I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia/transphobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.

Originally posted by neo_prodigy at Spirit Day
 


It’s been decided. On October 20th, 2010, we will wear purple in honor of the 6 gay boys who committed suicide in recent weeks/months due to homophobic abuse in their homes at at their schools. Purple represents Spirit on the LGBTQ flag and that’s exactly what we’d like all of you to have with you: spirit. Please know that times will get better and that you will meet people who will love you and respect you for who you are, no matter your sexuality. Please wear purple on October 20th. Tell your friends, family, co-workers, neighbors and schools.

RIP Tyler Clementi, Seth Walsh (top)
RIP Justin Aaberg, Raymond Chase (middle)
RIP Asher Brown and Billy Lucas. (bottom)

REBLOG to spread a message of love, unity and peace.



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Those Lips, THAT tongue and those amazing eyes...  Damn the boy is mighty fine...

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Just watched Fuzzy Vengeance tonight with my mom, Hilarious Movie. I'm a huge animal lover and loved seeing those animals finding ways to get back at Brendan for trying to take over the forest with his houses and mall.. Definetely a great comedy.. A+ comedy wise on my opinion

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Well I've been alone for 3 months now, and it hasn't been easy. I've never been the type of girl to be alone. When Bill left me, I fell apart and thought we were meant to be together and had to get back together. I realized i was wrong over time, because he didnt treat me well when were together or apart.

I realized I deserve much better, and I also realized that after we broke up the only person truly there for me was Jesus. He has always been there for me, so I'm trying to trust my heart in his hands more often and my life and my happiness seem to improving. I'm still not sure why Jesus doesnt really help with my illness, or other ill people but I realized that isnt for me to know. I'm trusting my life, my fate, and my world in God's Hand. He brought me into this world, and he knows what is best for me

I've been working out, and trying to lose weight. Doing preety good so far. Lost 30 pounds so far, only 15 left to go.. I wanna lose the chub, and try to tone up... It's difficult with my rsd, but I'm trying and using yoga, breathing, and Jesus as motivation to keep going.

Well that's all for now, Ciao...

Chrystine

Overdue

Well I havent posted in a while... Lots of stuff is new...

I've been bedridden since August, need help with everything from my mom, it sucks...

I've been in a psych hospital twice, commited suicide once...

I cut my hair really short

My pseudo-tumor is causing me problems so i gotta go to U-Penn to see a specialist

My rsd is really bad, that's why im bed-ridden..
I'm gonna try a morphine pump but i gotta wait til i find out why my pseudo tumor keeps coming back...

I'm single, and not looking right now... I have to deal with my shit first before i can take some guy's crap...

Those are the days in the life of a Princess

c'iao bella's
c'iao fella's

Long Overdue Update

Well I'm sorry I haven't written in a while, I've been really depressed most of the time, My shrink diagnosed me as bipolar which means I probably got it from my dad cause he's bipolar...

I'm going into the hospital on Monday for an epidural to try and lessen my pain, no gurantee's it'll work considering it didn't work 2 1/2 years ago but its worth a try, I'll be in the hospital for 5 days...The only good thing about this is I get to meet Melissa, I am soooo psyched, I've known her online thru our zines for at least 6 months now and she's just so awesome and im so exstatic that i'm gonna get to meet her when she comes to see me in the hospital...

Well my love life's been rather confusing lately, after me and Aly broke up i fell for Lisa and then realized i didn't love her like that and only thought of her as a friend, now i seriously believe im falling for someone.. Her name is Lori and i also know her thru zines, she's just so perfect and great and whenever we talk i just get so giddy and happy and ive never felt this way not since Lani (my 1st g/f), but im taking it slow cause i dont wanna ask her out and then realize i dont like her like i did with Lisa, I wanna ask her out when i'm totally sure..

But anyways thats all for now...Byezzzz

Just a quick update

Here's a quick update, not much has happened...


Aly and me- Well I've been dreading writing about this for a while now, Me and Aly broke up... She said she only loves me as a good friend now, whatever...it pisses
me off that someone can become that different now, how can your love for someone
change, I don't see that as possible but ok... I spent a few days crying my eyes out,
I couldn't believe our relationship was over again, we had just gotten back together... And then She starts dating this chick lucretia right after we break up, now this chick is shady, i don't trust her at all... A few days later, Lucretia and Aly broke up...short relationship, but whatever, i warned her that Lucretia would hurt her...But that's the end of that, the end of me and her... We're still friends, and we still talk but a part of me is still seriously pissed off at her though, i'll get over it in time, all wounds heal...I still love her, and always will love her, but we're just friends now and thats all we'll ever be, i could never date her again unless she does some growing up because a lot of her actions as of late have been really imatture, and i know she's gonna get pissed at me for saying all this, but this is my diary and my feelings and i'm sure as hell gonna be honest about this....

Lisa & me- Me and Lisa started off as friends back when me and Aly were together, and during all the tough times me and aly had Lisa was a true angel to me, she was so sweet and perfect and was always trying to get me and Aly back together...well when me and Aly broke up, i was free to actually like Lisa now, so me and her have just been getting closer and closer as the time goes on, and i find myself caring about her more and more... She called me on the phone the other nite, and it was so perfect, she's perfect....I love talking to her, and flirting with her but as of right now we're just really close friends, I do care about her, but i'm not gonna get involved til i feel totally over Aly, and Lisa's ok with that which is great....She's so perfect and wonderful and understanding...

Health- Well I'm supposed to go see an anthesiologist soon so we can schedule an epidural for me that might help my pain, It's been so long since i've had a treatment done so i'm glad the ball's finally rolling, hopefully i'll be in the hospital within a month or two....On another note, My shrink just figured out that i'm bipolar which means i probably inherited it from dad since he's bipolar as well...So my doctor put me on lithium, hopefully it'll work, i've been feeling so down lately, and very irritatiable, i keep telling everyone off but i don't mean to do it, it just happens and then people get angry and i usually end up feeling bad for telling them off cause i didnt do it purposely and i try to apology but they don't believe me....

Support Group- The group is going really well, We had about 10 people at our last meeting which is double the amount of people from the time before... We had a guest speaker come and talk about organic foods and give samples out, it was informative and everyone seemed to enjoy it... Courtney finally came so i was glad to meet her, Court and I have been talking online for about 4 months now, She's 16 and has the same illness as me... She's so sweet, and funny, and cute, It was nice to meet her... She'll hopefully come to the next meeting, its nice having someone close to my age in the group since everyone else is so much older than me there... I've been going over Meloney's house like once every 2 weeks to plan for the group and stuff its a nice outlet, I get out of the house and get to get away for a little bit from my family...Meloney's brother is so funny, lol...at the last meeting me and him were figthing like brother and sister, he's 38 but really sweet. slightly handicap though, but i don't really notice it, he's a cool person to hang around, a good friend...

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Update on me

Aly and me- I'm so confused on what's going on between me
and her lately, She had broken up with me for 2 weeks because
she said she wasn't good enough for me and that i deserved better
and that she'd end up hurting me eventually... I was really upset and
lost for the 2 weeks we were broken up, I just felt like i wasn't myself
without her, She wouldn't talk to me, she was avoiding me, it sucked..
Well during that time, me and Lisa became really close, and i started
liking her and developing feelings for her which confused me even
more, it took me a while to figure out what was going on in my head,
did i still wanna be with aly, was it worth all this trouble? Well i like
Lisa, but the thing is I love Aly with all my heart... So finally
me and Aly got back together and i was so happy and things
seemed to be going good but the problem is she also has feelings
for this girl named Lucretia, and she just told me that she's not
sure about me and her anymore...She said she loves me as a good friend,
so as of right now, Me and Aly are still together, but who knows for how
long.. I told her to let me know what she decides, no matter what
i'll always love her..but if we break up, i won't take her back
so easily next time, I can't be put thru that much hurt again...I love
her with all my heart, I could honestly see myself living with her one day
and marrying her... But if she doesn't love me like she used to, then
she shouldn't be with me... So i'll understand if we do break up,
even though i will be really upset, but whatever.

Family- my family hasn't been too bad lately, me and my brother
have been getting along preety well lately...My parents still
fight constantly but i'm kinda getting used to it,
I don't cry so much over it anymore, even though it does
drive me crazy..

Friends- Devon slept over last weekend, we just hung out
and watched tv and went online and played cards... We're
not as close as we used to be, but we still hang out sometimes..
.I don't really have any friends other than her, I mean i have friends
but they never make time for me at all.... Except for Meloney, she's
around whenever i wanna hang out

My support group- We had our 2nd meeting of the RSD group
i'm the co-founder of...Only about 5 people showed up, but we're
just getting started so its all good... I enjoyed meeting the new
people that came... Me and Mel have gotten together at her house
a few times to hang out and plan the meetings, She's like a best
friend/2nd mother to me cause she's like 38 but i love being
around her..... Our next meeting is on March 5th, hopefully more
people show up this time....

Depression- Well my shrink thinks i'm bipolar which sucks,
i mean i'm glad to finally have a diagnosis and all but bipolar
sucks...my dad is bipolar which is probably why i'm bipolar
cause its genetic... My shrink is gonna talk to my other doctor
and try and put me on some kinda medication to help with
that which will be good cause i've been a mess lately...Most
days i don't even feel like getting out of bed, or going online
or anything...Other days, i have tons of energy and feel like
i conquer the world... I've also been really easy to piss off lately,
I keep telling my family off for every little thing and then they get
mad at me for acting like a bitch, but its honestly not my fault, it
just happens, but they don't understand that.

Update on me

I'm gonna do things a little different this time since i've been so busy lately and stressed out and haven't updated this lately,
I'm gonna divide everything into topics, Its easier since i can't remember what i did most days

My illness- Well i saw my doctor and he wants to try and get me into the hospital sometime soon for a treatment, i've had this procedure done before 2 years ago but by a different doctor so my doctor now wants to try again, hopefully it'll help.. I haven't been in too much pain lately, and I've been able to cope with it better lately...

RSD Support Group- Me and Meloney got our support group started up, It's going well, We've had 2 meetings so far... I've been doing most of the planning and orginaztion and she's been doing most of the talking at meetings..
Mel's awesome though, I've been going over her house at least once a week lately, She's 36 but i love hanging around her... She actually has time for me unlike all my other friends around me...

Friends- Well i talked to Lani (ex girlfriend, best friend, known her 6 years) and Jose (my bestest friend, known 6 years) recently, and it turns out that they went to a party around halloween and had sex afterwards, and Lani is now turning it all around and saying Jose drugged and raped her and its pissing me off cause i know Jose would never rape a girl or drug her, they were both drinking at the party...He was only buzzed but she was totally drunk... Well she got pregnant, and had an abortion... He's really upset because she's acusing him of rape, I feel bad because im torn between 2 friends right now, but i feel really bad cause Jose's a good guy and he doesnt deserve all these false acusations.... I'm upset about it because it took them like 4 months to tell me and they both consider me a close friend... Lani didnt tell me cause she was ashamed, and Jose didn't tell me cause he was afraid I'd be mad at him for having sex with Lani, and letting her have the abortion...

Family- my family hasn't been too bad lately, My parents fight a lot and it upsets me a lot but i've been dealing with it ok, i guess... My brother's been preety nice to me lately, which is good... I'm glad i'm getting along with him.. I can't believe he's 18 now, his birthday was last month... It feels weird having him be 18, and thinking that i'll be 21 in September...I just found out my cousin Billy is getting shipped out, which makes me sad cause he's like one of my best friend's...I'm gonna miss him, He's gonna be gone for 6 months or more, and the only way we'll be able to keep in touch is by email....

Cutting- Its been 2 months since the last time I cut, I'm very proud of myself... I actually let myself cry now when i get upset instead of cutting...

Depression- My depression's had its ups and downs...some days i don't even feel like getting out of bed, and other days im all happy and hyper...My mom thinks im manic-depressive....Running the support group for my illness has definetely been helping my mood, Its been giving me a purpose.....
Monday-woke up at 1, ate lunch and just hung around for a few hours and watched tv and went online... started getting ready at 3, then I left at 3:30 to go to my disability advocates group. A lot of people were there this time so i got to see some people i hadn't seen in a while...Michael was there, and for those of you who don't know Michael is this older guy who i think has a little crush on me... He always sits next to me at meetings, today he like rubbed my shoulder a little when he sat down cause he hadn't seen me in a while... He's 46, and overweight...really sweet though, too bad he isnt younger... O well, lol....The leaders of the group gave us candles as a thank you for being in the group this year...and after that i went home, and watched 7th Heaven, Everwood, Real World/Roadrules battle, Gay Weddings, and caught up on my soaps from the day...And then i just laid in bed cause i was in sooooo much pain, and my leg was having spasms and hurting which scares me cause im afraid my illness may have spread to my leg...So i was up until 6:30 am cause i couldnt sleep....

past few days

Thursday-woke up at 12, and ate lunch...and then i went to the mall to pick up my new glasses, they are soooo cute... I love them, the one pair is kinda retro looking.. I will take pics for you guys whenever i get my camera to start working again....and then i did some shopping, I didnt buy much for a change because i really can't spend any more money, ive spent WAY too much this month... So i bought a Stevie Nicks cd, lol...i love her, but its funny i told a few people what i had bought and most people are like ive never heard of him...im like ummm its a her, and she's like really really famous...older but famous.... So then i bought a Auntie Annes pretzel and went home...went online, and then watched tv and went online again, lol....and then went to bed..

Friday-woke up at 1, ate lunch and then went back and laid in bed...watched all my soaps, and then watched some more tv... I didn't go online all day cause i didnt feel like getting out of bed...and then my parents went out to take my brother and his g/f out to dinner, so when they left i turned up the music really loud and took a nice long bath, i love it when my whole family goes out...and then i went online til 8, and then laid down and watched the WB Friday nite shows....and then i went to bed at 1am, i didnt even go online, lol... I was too tired... I watched a movie called "Things you can tell just by looking at her", It has Calista Flockart, Glenn Close, Cameron Diaz and a bunch of other people in it....It was really good...

Saturday-woke up at 1, ate lunch and then got ready to go out... I went to Michaels craft store, and got some pink and red paint for my cousin's wedding gift im making...and then i went to Target and got Autumn in New York on DVD...a stuffed monkey for my friend who loves monkeys, a cow pen for me, and some juice and pizza for a snack...then i went home, and went online til dinner...and then i ate dinner, and watched some tv and then went online for a little bit and then went to bed at like 2....

Sunday-woke up at 1, and ate lunch and complained to my mom that i was bored and wanted to go out, lol...So at around 2, we went to the mall... I didnt buy anything because im trying not to spend money right now so we stayed there for like 2 1/2 hours and then came home and ate and then i went online and thats where i am now, lol.....my parents are watching the super bowl and im just typing online, well thats all for now...byezzz
Tuesday-woke up at 12, and ate lunch....and then got ready because i had to go to the mall to get a card for Rachel's birthday...I got here this really preety friendship card, i know it'll mean a lot to her... She's one of my good online friends, her mom has the same illness as i do...and me and Rachel started talking one day and really bonded, she has known everything about me....thoughts of self-hatred, suicide, cutting, and every thoght ive had good or bad she's known about it so i had to make sure to get her a card... She doesnt have any friends where she lives so i know she won't get too many cards....So i picked out her card, and talked to Carol who is the lady at the mall welcome center, I'm really good friends with her and then went home...for a change, i didnt buy any clothes, lol... I was in pain and wanted to go home...So i went home, and just hung around online til 5 and then ate dinner and got ready to go to my Rebel meeting... For those of you who don't know Rebel is a smoking-prevention group.... It's goal is to stop other teens from smoking, and to make public places smoke free... We've already suceeded in making a few restaurants non-smoking....Well we talked about what activities were coming up for the group and then we discussed the newsletter...I'm the editor, we've been working on it for a while now and i think we should have the first issue ready soon so im excited, lol...its like my baby.... and then i came home and watched, American Idol...i love that show, Simon's awesome....and then i just went online until i went to bed...

Wednesday-woke up at 12, went to physical therapy and occupational therapy...It was my last day, kinda sad to me cause i had been going there 3 times a week for 4 weeks now...it was very routine to me... So they did my final evaluation in PT, i made a little progress...and then in OT, I finished painting my cow and glued it all together...Once my camera is working again, ill put in a picture of it...and then after therapy, i went home and hung around online til 5...ate dinner, had cake...it was my brother's 18th birthday and then got ready to go to my chronic pain meeting...there were a lot of people there, but this one guy would not shut up, he talked so much...all in all it was a good meeting though...and then i went home, and watched the Bachelorette and went online and then im gonna go to bed later sometime...tommorow i have to go pick up my 2 new pairs of glasses at Sears...

Past few days

Saturday-woke up at 12, which is early for me, lol...My mom was in my room straightening up and shit and it woke me up so i just got up and ate... And then i showered and decided to go do some shopping, Kohl's was having a bra sale and i needed a bra to go under my black seethru shirt...So I went to Kohl's and bought my bra, its a really preety black lacey bra...Then, I went to Best Buys and bought 3 dvs(Things you can tell just by looking at her, The Pact, and Bad Behavior).....They looked really good, they were all on the discount rack so they were only $26 altogether...and then i went to Target, and bought a really nice white zipper sweater, sandpaper for my box im painting, soda, and some juice...Then, i went home and just hung around for a little bit...My friend Justin came over around 9:40 and we just hung around and watched tv and talked, he is soooo cute and sweet though and smelled really good...I've liked him for like 2 years now...he stayed til 12...and then i just went online and me and devon made plans for tommorow...she's gonna come over and hang out for few hours....

Sunday-woke up at 12:40 when Devon called, talked to her until around 2 and then i got up and ate lunch nd painted my box some until she called and told me she was coming over around like 3:30 so i got showered and all and then she got here and we watched the end of 7th Heaven...it was the episode where Matt got married, cuteness...and then she wanted to watch the Eagles game so i put it on, i HATE football.... We played a game of Skipbo while we watched though so that was good, I love playing skipbo with her...She stayed until the 4th quarter started and then went home...the rest of the night i just went online and watched tv, around like 12am i worked on painting my box s0me more and went to bed at 2:30 am which was really early for me....

Monday-woke up at 12, ate lunch...my brother was home from school today and was getting on my last nerve during lunch...and then i left for therapy, in PT i just did my exercises with eve...and in OT, I learned how to make a fried egg :-) and then worked on painting my cow some more...Sharon called down to the recreational therapy area and asked if they needed any volunteers and they said yes so im gonna call about that later this week cause once i finish PT/OT on Wednesday im gonna need something to do so im gonna volunteer there and help the patients with their crafts and play games with them and make decorations for the hospital....After OT, I went home and hung out online all day and ate dinner, and then im gonna watch some tv, work on my wood project, go online again and go to bed, lol......

criticism sucks

woke up at 12, ate lunch...french toast...got ready and left for PT/OT... I had Sharon today for PT, She told me more about her church and all... I might go next weekend maybe, we'll see...Found out that Wendesday is my last day for PT/OT, makes me a little sad cause i like the people there, lol... In OT, I worked on my cow some more...its almost done being painted which is good since wednesday is my last day...and then i came home, went online, and im just gonna watch tv and go online for the rest of the night...My mom's been criticizing me all night, yelling at me for losing the disk for my camera, and telling me i didnt put stuff away right, and telling me i dont act my age...i am getting so tired of her crap, i wish i just had somewhere to run away to, i cant handle my family anymore...Welll thats all for now..

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